So right now I'm in a horrible mood. I don't know why, and I've been this way for about an hour, but I am just mad at everybody, and I think I know the reason. There's this thing we're doing in science where we take home a fake baby and feed it, burp it, etc. My parents are making me do it just because my older sister had a baby at 19, and they don't want us being a teen mom. Sometimes I hate being one of the youngest, because people are imposing the consequences of others' actions on you, to "prepare you". I'm not GOING to get pregnant. I'm not GOING to be a teen mom. But it happened to my sister, so apparently it's going to happen to me if I don't learn what it's really like. As if I don't already know. I remember the nights when my nephew would wake me up at 3 am shrieking. But I'm expected to go through this with smiles and rainbows and not feel any anger or frustration at all because "this is how it'll be in real life".
I hate being a teenager, because people expect you to be in a good mood all the time, and then when you aren't they won't leave you alone trying to figure out why. Then when you tell them, you get lectured and scolded, when you never wanted to tell them but they forced you. That's basically what happens with me every time I voice my opinion. I'm only a teenager, so I don't know anything, even though I'm expected to be able to make the right decisions about everything.
This guy at my school doesn't like my boyfriend because he's a redhead, and told me he either was cheating on me or would cheat on me. I didn't know why he disliked him at first, but when I learned I was so mad I could've fought that kid then and there. I'm not going to go into detail, but long story short: I'm not talking to the guy anymore. I've been with my boyfriend for 4 months Feb. 24 and I'm not about to let some judgmental attention-seeker ruin it.
SO THERE'S ALL FOR TODAY I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT LOVE YOU BYE
-LizzyBeth